MJ: Will ALWAYS Be Remembered....

When I heard bout the news of MJ's death, I was skeptical. I didn't wanna believe them dam* reporters! I was in denial. I confirmed it through CNN.com (reliable source) and I felt my heart sink. How could someone so "godly" die so young? Does being good qualify you to die young or is it just being an icon stress all your cells & die prematurely? I was sad, it was like someone close to me dies... someone I knew... It's MJ, everybody got to know him because of his music. His music is like a script of his life & he was a great influence on a lot of people, not just Americans. I reminisce my elementary years & all those singing I had to do just to pass the dam* classes! My two song choices (only song choices) are "Dangerous" by another artist & "Heal the World" by MJ. Those were the only songs I know by heart because "Dangerous" was the fave song of my bestfriend, Monica & "Heal The World" reflected my soul's intention. I know his (MJ) other songs but I couldn't memorize the lyrics, just the refrain part (I'm Miss Refrain). Right now, I'm chatting with other MJ fans, I'm able to cry with them as they share their fondest memories with MJ's songs. I'm also battling with pessimists in the net coz they have so much to say against MJ. Give him a break! He's dead & soon you'll be but the difference is that the world won't cry for you! MJ is not a God nor saint, He's just a person who is capable of loving & getting hurt like us but before he died, he left a legacy that will always be remembered. When I have kids & grandchildren, I'll share his music & his love for the earth & people so that he will never be forgotten. Wherever you are MJ, may you be at peace & smile knowing your kids are ok & we are continuing our support.. You will always be remembered, King of Pop, Michael Jackson!

When everything's been said & done...

"I hate my Mama..." Those were the words I'd written in my diary that my Mom accidentally read. It tore through her heart & opened her eyes to the truth that she never realize was there, I never felt her presence. I grew up with a complete family & the full attention was on me.My needs were given and there were times even my wants were easily provided, I can claim life was easy. Then my brother, Modart, ruined that scene, that feeling. I felt like I lost everyone. He was always the baby, I was invincible. He gets everything he wants, I get the leftovers. Life was unfair. I became a rebel by not attending my classes. I felt like life was cruel to me so I should do what I want & not do what I don't. That simple. Moving on, I did everything that could hurt my Mom (not my intention to hurt my Dad but he got hurt as well) except drugs. I partied with wrong friends, I drank alcoholic drinks, I smoke and most of all, I lied to them a lot. That I did to let my Mom realize that I also exist & I need her too. All it took was four words, "I hate my Mama..", for her senses to return. A gap existed between us since then. I didn't exert any effort to get close to her but I can feel that she wanted to do something that could break the walls I built. Then came the time I was in college. I didn't wanna take up Nursing (Mama's a nurse) but I was obliged to (by Daddy) since I had to make-up for my rebellion days in High School. I never loved my course & never will maybe because I lack the strength to face dying people, comfort the love ones or to move on when someone dies on my shift. I am strong but not that strong.. I studied in Mindanao after my two years in Cebu. There I felt the need of her hands, of her touch. She didn't know I got sick for 2 months for crying at night wanting to snuggle next to her at bed (and asthma). I missed her so much that I felt the need to go home at least once a week. I wanted to tell her that I can't bear another day in Ozamiz, that it kills me not to know she's ok. At that time, she already suffered CHF or congestive Heart Failure, Hypertension & Diabetes Mellitus. Then she suddenly opened up & asked me how I felt that time I wrote those four striking words, I was out of words. I couldn't tell her exactly how I felt but one thing come out of my mouth, "I love you Ma.." I said that in utmost sincerity... I love you Ma... We cried & forgiveness was apparent. Who would know that the damage of those four words would be healed by another four words..? Now, it's almost her birthday & I just want you to know that I love you Ma... No matter how plain those words may seem, I love you... And i'll never ever ask for another Mother as loving, as understanding & as giving as you. Happy Birthday Ma & I wish that God will give you more years for us (Me, Matthew & Modart) to express our love & gratitude to you... We are a year away from fulfilling our "London Dream" & Modart's gonna fulfill your "American Dream". We ♥♥♥ You! I LOVE YOU MA!

eggs & tuna prevents brain from shrinking...

As if wrinkles weren’t bad enough, turns out our brains tend to shrivel as we age, too. Could eggs and tuna be the key to less shrinkage?

Research makes it seem so. Why? Because both tuna and eggs are good sources of vitamin B12. And B12 may help keep brain atrophy in check.

How Low Is Low?
In a 5-year study, people in their 60s and beyond who were low -- but not deficient -- on B12 were three to six times more likely to have brain atrophy than did people on the higher end of the normal B12 range. So being even a little low may be bad. Make sure you’re getting enough by taking a supplement or eating B12-rich foods -- like eggs and tuna. Use this tool to find other foods that are high in B12.

Why Bigger Is Better
Brain shrinkage is commonly seen in people with Alzheimer’s disease, and more and more research points to a connection between cognitive function and B12 levels. So that may explain the connection with brain shrinkage. B vitamins may help ward off stroke, too. Here’s how.

Want to give your brain a workout? Boost your verbal dexterity with this word game that involves speed, strategy, and vocabulary.
RealAge Benefit: Getting 25 micrograms of vitamin B12 from a supplement can make your RealAge 0.6 years younger.

Reference: www.realage.com

Finally! After months in hibernation!

Im Back!!! damn! Did I miss something? I had the busiest months ever!!December & January rules!!! Bye 2008, it was nice knowing you! Hello 2008, make me richer!!! bwahahaha... New year, new love & new job! ugh! Right now, I've passed CCT training (w/c was really scary) and now, I'm trying to pass PST.. Honestly, I wasn't confident in passing the CCT... Why? Not because I can't speak up, but am I qualified for the company's standard. I'm with Convergys now, and no matter how hard I try to assure myself that I can do it coz I have the experience, still, alot of times I proved myself unworthy of being in the call center business.. hehehe... Anyways, Last Wednesday, January 7 (i think), we had our final mock call... damn! ii (Iris) was really2 nervous & she's contagious.. hehehe... We had 100% for that mock call & I got 95% overall rating out of 100.. yey!!! I was 2nd in class... Ask me why I'm not 1st... hehehe... coz i sucked in our oral....ask me again.... coz I wasn't able to sleep because of anxiety... grabeh!!! but it was OK... Out of 20 people, 3 people left the WAVE 166B.... Jerome, the funny guy (and a really good friend) Lloyd aka Lloydy, the history teacher and Chris aka cristo, the secret millionaire... hehehe... I miz those guys.. It's hard when they became my routine in 2 weeks... ugh! Still, we communicate & we're still friends... I like my company now because I feel really challenge with the job and the people are really nice... they are human, they don't act as if they're superhuman or the virgins... wow!!! I thought CVG people would all be snobs & social climbers... damn! usa nq nla! It's not that I don't like my previous company but I feel like I've really upgraded!! I appreciate the trainings from PS and even if I didn't like my experience with Supportsave, still, I thank them for making me realize that I should only love my job & not the company!!! Anyways, after crying for sometime, we took pix with our pretty trainer, Tanya Chica.. She's strict & firm with her decisions yet, I know deep inside, she also wished for miracles to happen.. Tanya, thank you! I miz her being chikadora & praning.... Now, we have Maria Rizza Colina aka Rizza to amuse us... I also love her! She's really good & still remain human despite her position... Here are some of the pix.... PS: Batch 166 is composed of A & B. I belong to be & a lot of people notice that our batch have the beauty w/ brains chix.... It's for you to judge... hell yeah!!! Give me a year with Sprint! God bless us!

Wave 166B lines:
"yayaya Ma'am" - Jerome
"American movies rock my world!" - Meh
"Basically......" -Jeno
"Actually......." -Flora Mae
"........because........" (speaking in vernacular then the trainer comes in then changes to english starting w/ "because") (caught a couple of times! hehe) - Flora Mae aka Katrina Halili